Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
I've been neglecting you
due to: busyness, apathy & a lack of things to share.
RECAP of my current state.
Hawaii:::: is always unexpected. I can never predict quite how my trips will go. They usually fall into some sort of similar patterns including, but not limited to, seeing my people, eating the food of the homeland, indescribable arguments, not spending time at the beach, it was what it was. I don't think I have any more to say, because I'm not greatest at processing things. I analyze A LOT, but don't have any clue as to how to go about processing.
California:::: working on my senior show. thinking about my show. needing to pass geology. trying to find a new apartment. wanting my own rooom, omg, i want my own rooooom. thinking a lot about things, people, places... the usual conversations that go on in my head, just with a stronger intensity since things are about to change come graduation.
what am i doing with my life? you would think it would be a very freeing feeling to be free of obligation to anyone/s, anything, but it's terrifying and unwanted by me.
P.S. I stare at computer screens 1/2 of my life. I think they know me most.
P.S.S. show on the 18th of May, it'd be nice if you would be there.
RECAP of my current state.
Hawaii:::: is always unexpected. I can never predict quite how my trips will go. They usually fall into some sort of similar patterns including, but not limited to, seeing my people, eating the food of the homeland, indescribable arguments, not spending time at the beach, it was what it was. I don't think I have any more to say, because I'm not greatest at processing things. I analyze A LOT, but don't have any clue as to how to go about processing.
California:::: working on my senior show. thinking about my show. needing to pass geology. trying to find a new apartment. wanting my own rooom, omg, i want my own rooooom. thinking a lot about things, people, places... the usual conversations that go on in my head, just with a stronger intensity since things are about to change come graduation.
what am i doing with my life? you would think it would be a very freeing feeling to be free of obligation to anyone/s, anything, but it's terrifying and unwanted by me.
P.S. I stare at computer screens 1/2 of my life. I think they know me most.
P.S.S. show on the 18th of May, it'd be nice if you would be there.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
RELAX.
I'm home for the weekish, less than a week. It started off with korean bbq, thank the Lord. I've been missing foooood so much. California's just not up to par in this area. ANd the weather-- the weather, so nice.
AHHH, it feels good to be back :)
AHHH, it feels good to be back :)
Sunday, April 5, 2009
check check
I felt that is was necessary to blog about this man:
Dr. Masaru Emoto
I've been doing research on the topics of water, sea, floating, ocean, h20, sailing... you get my drift. Dr. Emoto is featured on WhattheBleep, a website about water's "expressions." Anyways, I'm not proposing you check out this website, but at least treasure this face, like I do.
Dr. Masaru Emoto
I've been doing research on the topics of water, sea, floating, ocean, h20, sailing... you get my drift. Dr. Emoto is featured on WhattheBleep, a website about water's "expressions." Anyways, I'm not proposing you check out this website, but at least treasure this face, like I do.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Moses and Jello
One of the things I love about my mom is that she keeps a journal. She has done this her whole life... not only does she keep a journal, but ladies and gentlemen, she labels them in chronological order. She's currently in the 80's.
From time to time, my mom calls to tell me, "I've been missing you and I was reading one of my journals from when you were 4...you said the cutest things."
(on mom's jello-making abilities)
I was always a nice kid, soft-spoken, afraid to hurt peoples feelings, thankfully I learned about sarcasm and wit... The jello my mom made was too "rubbery" not soft enough but I couldn't tell her, but I definitely couldn't eat it. So I said, "hey mom, let's just take this jello to heaven and eat it then, k? I know the story is about me, but, I still think it's okay for me to think its cute.
(on the realization that God "does not care")
Apparently I had been suffering from a cold. "Mom, I feel terrible. God did so much for Moses and Noah and He does NOTHING for me!"
{I love how I felt so helpless at age 4 and oddly spiritual}
P.S. Keep a journal. It's good for your soul, it's good for documentation, it's just GOOD.
From time to time, my mom calls to tell me, "I've been missing you and I was reading one of my journals from when you were 4...you said the cutest things."
(on mom's jello-making abilities)
I was always a nice kid, soft-spoken, afraid to hurt peoples feelings, thankfully I learned about sarcasm and wit... The jello my mom made was too "rubbery" not soft enough but I couldn't tell her, but I definitely couldn't eat it. So I said, "hey mom, let's just take this jello to heaven and eat it then, k? I know the story is about me, but, I still think it's okay for me to think its cute.
(on the realization that God "does not care")
Apparently I had been suffering from a cold. "Mom, I feel terrible. God did so much for Moses and Noah and He does NOTHING for me!"
{I love how I felt so helpless at age 4 and oddly spiritual}
P.S. Keep a journal. It's good for your soul, it's good for documentation, it's just GOOD.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
F-O-X, fox.
It's been a whirlwind. What? you ask. My life, I say.
errands, lists, lists, and errands.
work & school. school & friends.
you know... the life, the whirlwind.
I came across this note the other day, from my Claire.
P.S. I highly recommend this method of figuring out your spirit animal over the online quizzes.
errands, lists, lists, and errands.
work & school. school & friends.
you know... the life, the whirlwind.
I came across this note the other day, from my Claire.
P.S. I highly recommend this method of figuring out your spirit animal over the online quizzes.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Give Blood! but read the fine print before you wait in line
I tried...
But had I read the fine print and 12 page packet before waiting in line for 45 minutes, during my lunch break, might I add, this all could have been avoided.
Lesson: If you have had a piercing/tattoo (within the past year), done needle-related drugs, and/or slept with people for money, or slept with a guy who's slept with a guy, even if it only happened once then, yes, your blood will be rejected.
P.S. I only violated the first crime.
But had I read the fine print and 12 page packet before waiting in line for 45 minutes, during my lunch break, might I add, this all could have been avoided.
Lesson: If you have had a piercing/tattoo (within the past year), done needle-related drugs, and/or slept with people for money, or slept with a guy who's slept with a guy, even if it only happened once then, yes, your blood will be rejected.
P.S. I only violated the first crime.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
the grandest of canyons
Grand Canyon 09::: beautiful, beautiful, beautiful.
Here's where we're headed...
I think it's sort of beautiful in a gross sort of way.
Sunset.
The elk babies on the road.
Embrace the canyon :)
I love the bizarre glow of the sign, it's creepy, in the best sort of way.
Here's where we're headed...
I think it's sort of beautiful in a gross sort of way.
Sunset.
The elk babies on the road.
Embrace the canyon :)
I love the bizarre glow of the sign, it's creepy, in the best sort of way.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Ingrid Hora: functional escapism
I would like to escape also, maybe soon, unfortunately not in a beautiful manner as this.
Ingrid Hora.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
"i just want to be alright, try to live a simple life"
Listened to my song today, 2 times. First time in a long time. That's what happens when nostalgia takes over and the good times seem so far away.
I'm seriously considering moving..... to ..... Portland!
Where the cost of living is LOW :) and the the charm, grunge, and coffee is HIGH.
Perhaps, in January? I just don't know if I'm cut out for Southern California. LA and I have a love/hate relationship. I hate what I love about it and I love what I hate. I love how it's the Art/Fashion/Music empire of the world, but I hate everything that comes with that-- The lack of character, the flood of materialism... *sigh. I love being able to go on roadtrips or be in Hollywood in 30 minutes, but there's more to life, and I don't think I'm going to find it here. I need a city that's not going to eat my soul or my wallet, nom nom nom.
I'm seriously considering moving..... to ..... Portland!
Where the cost of living is LOW :) and the the charm, grunge, and coffee is HIGH.
Perhaps, in January? I just don't know if I'm cut out for Southern California. LA and I have a love/hate relationship. I hate what I love about it and I love what I hate. I love how it's the Art/Fashion/Music empire of the world, but I hate everything that comes with that-- The lack of character, the flood of materialism... *sigh. I love being able to go on roadtrips or be in Hollywood in 30 minutes, but there's more to life, and I don't think I'm going to find it here. I need a city that's not going to eat my soul or my wallet, nom nom nom.
Monday, March 9, 2009
25 random facts
I know this is a facebook thing, but I definitely enjoyed reading other peoples, especially Beth's (see February 12), she's quite the one to make me laugh hysterically; mine aren't quite as random or witty, but enjoy.
1. I like to collect globes, maps, and screen-printed posters.
2. Until I was nine, I collected horse and unicorn figurines, I had quite a collection (from porcelain to glass, to afghans, to wallpaper trim).
3. I also rode a horse as a child; His name was Hukilau.
4. I've spent many days in the hospital throughout my lifetime, I'd say over a year, close to two, if I added them all together due to family illness.
5. I have a large birthmark on my left arm that starts at my wrist and ends on my shoulder blade. When I was eight a girl asked me if it was a birthmark and then said, "it looks good on you."
6. If I could be anything in the world, I would be a mermaid, hands down.
7. Watching TV is a highly escapist activity for me and is necessary for my sanity these days.
8. I'm going to school full-time, have an internship, and a job this semester as well as a senior show to plan; I’m tired all the time.
9. I have always had a difficult time falling asleep at night, ever since I was a young child.
10. The doctors say I have a soft voice because I don't take enough breaths, making projection difficult.
11. I really dislike going to chapel for two reasons: I dislike 90% of worship music because the majority of it is poorly written and repetitive to the point of indifference; the viewing of "give your neighbor a sensual massage" (see my first note).
12. The first time I went out with my ex, I literally hit my head on a metal street sign because I was so nervous and was looking to the ground. The sound of the metal waving in the air consequently led to a guy on the street asking me if I needed ice because he happened to be carrying a large bag of it. I was mortified.
13. The funniest thing I've seen in the past semester was when my friend Andrew picked up the guitar (unannounced) for Rockband, turned his back to the TV, and played “Metal Heavy Lady” perfectly on expert.
14. I remember I used to love to hide in my dad’s 70’s orange-lined guitar case before he came home from work.
15. My brother is the one person in the world I’d do absolutely anything for.
16. My room at home has changed many times over the years: bunny wallpaper, Ernie and Bert (he was always my fav, despite the uni-brow) wallpaper, horse wallpaper, white paint, black paint, and currently light green paint, and apparently my mother just painted it a nice warm neutral (unbeknownst to me).
17. We used to travel a lot when I was growing up, I went to Paris twice, England, Spain, Japan, and all over the US before I was nine.
18. Broken Social Scene is the band I love to listen to the most despite the perverted song titles.
19. I love snow, I’ve only seen it actually fall once, and we pulled to the side of the road so I could experience it. (Thank you Angie Welsch)
20. I miss my best girls from home and love how different we are, yet understand each other so well.
21. I think the greatest gifts are songs, homemade goods, and creatively planned excursions.
22. This is the first time I haven’t been in a relationship since I was fifteen. I’m learning how to do things on my own for once. It’s liberating, yet lonely.
23. One of the best things a guy ever told me was, “I will never make you watch ESPN” but “you are my rushmore” was definitely the winner.
24. Whoever gets up first (between my roommate and I) brings the other coffee and a slice of toast. It’s our new tradition now that we’ve claimed each other as our heterosexual life partners.
25. I’m not into watching sports too much, but I definitely watched the fight on Saturday night and am a little embarrassed to be sharing that. I was bummed that Penn loss, I have some Hawaiian pride within me (Penn fight 1.31.09) .
1. I like to collect globes, maps, and screen-printed posters.
2. Until I was nine, I collected horse and unicorn figurines, I had quite a collection (from porcelain to glass, to afghans, to wallpaper trim).
3. I also rode a horse as a child; His name was Hukilau.
4. I've spent many days in the hospital throughout my lifetime, I'd say over a year, close to two, if I added them all together due to family illness.
5. I have a large birthmark on my left arm that starts at my wrist and ends on my shoulder blade. When I was eight a girl asked me if it was a birthmark and then said, "it looks good on you."
6. If I could be anything in the world, I would be a mermaid, hands down.
7. Watching TV is a highly escapist activity for me and is necessary for my sanity these days.
8. I'm going to school full-time, have an internship, and a job this semester as well as a senior show to plan; I’m tired all the time.
9. I have always had a difficult time falling asleep at night, ever since I was a young child.
10. The doctors say I have a soft voice because I don't take enough breaths, making projection difficult.
11. I really dislike going to chapel for two reasons: I dislike 90% of worship music because the majority of it is poorly written and repetitive to the point of indifference; the viewing of "give your neighbor a sensual massage" (see my first note).
12. The first time I went out with my ex, I literally hit my head on a metal street sign because I was so nervous and was looking to the ground. The sound of the metal waving in the air consequently led to a guy on the street asking me if I needed ice because he happened to be carrying a large bag of it. I was mortified.
13. The funniest thing I've seen in the past semester was when my friend Andrew picked up the guitar (unannounced) for Rockband, turned his back to the TV, and played “Metal Heavy Lady” perfectly on expert.
14. I remember I used to love to hide in my dad’s 70’s orange-lined guitar case before he came home from work.
15. My brother is the one person in the world I’d do absolutely anything for.
16. My room at home has changed many times over the years: bunny wallpaper, Ernie and Bert (he was always my fav, despite the uni-brow) wallpaper, horse wallpaper, white paint, black paint, and currently light green paint, and apparently my mother just painted it a nice warm neutral (unbeknownst to me).
17. We used to travel a lot when I was growing up, I went to Paris twice, England, Spain, Japan, and all over the US before I was nine.
18. Broken Social Scene is the band I love to listen to the most despite the perverted song titles.
19. I love snow, I’ve only seen it actually fall once, and we pulled to the side of the road so I could experience it. (Thank you Angie Welsch)
20. I miss my best girls from home and love how different we are, yet understand each other so well.
21. I think the greatest gifts are songs, homemade goods, and creatively planned excursions.
22. This is the first time I haven’t been in a relationship since I was fifteen. I’m learning how to do things on my own for once. It’s liberating, yet lonely.
23. One of the best things a guy ever told me was, “I will never make you watch ESPN” but “you are my rushmore” was definitely the winner.
24. Whoever gets up first (between my roommate and I) brings the other coffee and a slice of toast. It’s our new tradition now that we’ve claimed each other as our heterosexual life partners.
25. I’m not into watching sports too much, but I definitely watched the fight on Saturday night and am a little embarrassed to be sharing that. I was bummed that Penn loss, I have some Hawaiian pride within me (Penn fight 1.31.09) .
Friday, March 6, 2009
in need of some lovin'
Lately, I've been missing having pets around. Granted, Colin Farrell, my fish, is rad, he's great, such a trooper, going strong, but I don't get much feedback from him. So if anyone want's to give me any of these sweet babies, keep em' coming.
If these are too obscure, I'm definitely open to getting a dog.
If these are too obscure, I'm definitely open to getting a dog.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
be kind and love
It sounds so simple, so direct, yet so impossible. My heart is heavy, my heart is tired. My "good sense" seems so unimportant these days. Doing the "right thing" seems to bear little weight in the scheme of things and happens to be a lonely place at times. I want to be who I need to be, who people need me to be, who God wants me to be, but most of the time I feel like I'm drowning in expectations, fears, anxiety, and pressure. Somebody send some air my way or at least a floating device.
Friday, February 27, 2009
I have been given the gift of Fridays
I've been pretty busy this semester... juggling two internships, a job, and going to school full-time. I feel like nothing I'm doing is getting done to the best of my ability, leaving all my projects and work, completed... half-ass. So today I quit my Friday internship in Long Beach at a high-end wedding photography studio. I hate quitting, it's not something I do, or usually see as an option, so it was a difficult decision which made me sick to my stomach all day. So now, Fridays will be spent at my other internship. I'll be able to work there three full days a week, while being paid. Hopefully this will lead to bigger jobs which will lead to portfolio work. The internship I quit was unpaid and I wasn't able to spend enough time there to actually learn and get a lot out of the experience. It's sucks though, it was a really fun environment with nice people and beautiful work...
So here's to not being spread thin and making good work. Phew.
So here's to not being spread thin and making good work. Phew.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
modest mouse and martin starr
On Monday night my friend BETH and I went to see Modest Mouse in her hometown Visalia, CA. It's about a 3 1/2 hour drive North from LA. It was a pretty good show, the sound wasn't too great, but it was a cute theatre, a nice and cozy type of feel. We headed back to LA at 1:00 am and got home around 5:00 due to the 5 being closed at Indiana. I went to work at 10:00-5:00 the next day and got a text from my friend Jake saying he had free tickets to see Modest Mouse in Hollywood. SOOO, naturally, I saw them again on Tuesday night. But the BEST part of the night was seeing Martin Starr. He will always be, my Bill <3 <3 <3
Thursday, February 19, 2009
"excuse me, can i listen????"
On Tuesday my MINDY and I went to see LYKKE LI @ the Glass House. I really love going to her shows, she's a really great performer- so fun LIVE cause you can 'DONCE, DONCE, DONCE'. . .
Story time.... {but first a little background info}
I don't consider myself a confrontational person, due to the fact that I really didn't start talking to people besides my parents til around 4, but regardless, I'm not one to confront people, close friends sure, but strangers, definitely NO. Anyways at the show we were standing on a platform and this couple decides to join us. They proceed to move on to multiple make out sessions as well as the eventual ass humping. The show finally starts and this girl decides to stand in front of me. Not such a big deal but I'm 5'2! So I did the whole, moving my head every four seconds to get a clear shot, it wasn't so bad. Then the couple decides to have a fight. Arguing, whining, all in my face. I grab this girl by the shoulders, turn her around, point to Lykke Li and say "I like her, can I listen?" I surprised her, needless to say, and she got scared and scooted a good two feet over (after her boyfriend proceeded to call me a bitch) and didn't bother me anymore and ended up moving to a different section after two songs. I felt bad ass for a brief moment, and then immediately felt that I should apologize, but told myself to stay strong, and strong I stayed.
Story time.... {but first a little background info}
I don't consider myself a confrontational person, due to the fact that I really didn't start talking to people besides my parents til around 4, but regardless, I'm not one to confront people, close friends sure, but strangers, definitely NO. Anyways at the show we were standing on a platform and this couple decides to join us. They proceed to move on to multiple make out sessions as well as the eventual ass humping. The show finally starts and this girl decides to stand in front of me. Not such a big deal but I'm 5'2! So I did the whole, moving my head every four seconds to get a clear shot, it wasn't so bad. Then the couple decides to have a fight. Arguing, whining, all in my face. I grab this girl by the shoulders, turn her around, point to Lykke Li and say "I like her, can I listen?" I surprised her, needless to say, and she got scared and scooted a good two feet over (after her boyfriend proceeded to call me a bitch) and didn't bother me anymore and ended up moving to a different section after two songs. I felt bad ass for a brief moment, and then immediately felt that I should apologize, but told myself to stay strong, and strong I stayed.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Soooo Gooooood.
So I've mentioned the 'Buffy Bar' by Lush, but the 'Ocean Salt Cleanser' is BY FAR the most amazing product I've used on my face. EVER. It's a blend of 'Vodka margarita that exfoliates and cleanses tired skin.' It smells so yummy and makes your skin sooo incredibly soft. It's a bit pricey but definitely worth ever penny!!
www.lush.com
www.lush.com
Thursday, February 12, 2009
valentines on my new baby
it's a tradition for me to give gifts to my family on valentine's day and this year was no different, especially since i have no valentine of my own! (i'm a little bummed, not gonna lie....) but these were pretty fun to make.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
first day of the last days
Yesterday was the first day of my last semester of my academic career, assuming I decide not to go to grad school or, the more obvious reason, being rejected into grad school. It's exciting. These past four years have flown by so fast. I left home at 17, moved 3,000 miles away, over the Pacific Ocean, and now this chapter is ending, it's a blur. Currently I'm taking 4 classes, an internship at Ira Lippke Studios; I also started a new job last week as a Design Intern in the Marketing Department of my school, and I'm also the Photo Editor of this years yearbook which should be finished by mid-March. I'm staying busy, but I'm a workaholic at heart because it keeps me sane in so many ways.
Here's some picture's from when I went to Big Bear this past weekend. I LOVE snow. LOOOOOVE.
me and my best pal, Kathy.
View from our room.
Here's some picture's from when I went to Big Bear this past weekend. I LOVE snow. LOOOOOVE.
me and my best pal, Kathy.
View from our room.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
grammy commercial & franco
kinda cool, except, why Thom Yorke, it's just a tease to not feature them if he's the main ad for the event.
it reminds me of my birthday present from claire, my embroidered James Franco GOLDEN pillow.
it reminds me of my birthday present from claire, my embroidered James Franco GOLDEN pillow.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
way out in the water, see it swimmin' ?
So I'm back to California after 20 days of being in Hawaii and let me say it was one of my best trips home so far since living in LA for 3 1/2 years now. I did a lot of relaxing on my mother's floral couch, a lot of family related stress due to a few hospital trips and a secret engagement, as well as dealt with "drama" from friends from highschool (that was actually the low point from the whole trip) but despite the downs I got to spent quality time with close friends as well as with the many dvd's I zoned out to. My FAVORITE thing experienced all break was the aquarium. A friend of ours works there (name will be protected due to the circumstances) on the night shift and therefore, we get to hang there at night. He turns all the tank lights on and we get to hang out with the fishes (seriously, I dreamt about being a mermaid, so this is amazingly fun to me). There's also a room with a projection screen where we play Rockband and then we go on the roof, enjoy some beers and watch the city lights. What more could I ask for?
I claim it as my own, my nest, my cave, mine.
I claim it as my own, my nest, my cave, mine.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
skeletons.
well, RECAP of 2008.
Paris.
Found love.
Lost love.
Spring Break road trip to Portland.
Summer in Hawaii.
Shot my first wedding in July.
Aeva came to town.
Back to school in August.
Labor Day in Arkansas.
New Roommate Kathy, BFF.
A heavy addiction to cheese began ala Kathy.
Lots of Green Tea Lattes & CoffeeBean trips.
Turned 21 October 3rd.
Thanksgiving with highschool friends.
Christmas in Hawaii.
Still miss love.
And it all ended with a totaled car on New Year's Eve.
It was a good one, it was a bad one, not so much my year, 2009, treat me right (please).
Paris.
Found love.
Lost love.
Spring Break road trip to Portland.
Summer in Hawaii.
Shot my first wedding in July.
Aeva came to town.
Back to school in August.
Labor Day in Arkansas.
New Roommate Kathy, BFF.
A heavy addiction to cheese began ala Kathy.
Lots of Green Tea Lattes & CoffeeBean trips.
Turned 21 October 3rd.
Thanksgiving with highschool friends.
Christmas in Hawaii.
Still miss love.
And it all ended with a totaled car on New Year's Eve.
It was a good one, it was a bad one, not so much my year, 2009, treat me right (please).
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